Good day

Today I attended my first baby shower. It was a lot of fun and at the same time revealed a little too much information on things I’m not too ready to hear just yet. The baby shower was for one of my good friends from work, Sam.  The baby shower took place at the yacht club in Sheboygan, close to the lake front. I have known same for almost two years and have watched her go from thinking she was pregnant to actually being very pregnant, now at almost 8 months with twins.

A little before she first found out that she was pregnant we were at Paradigm just having a nice time out to talk in an environment outside of work. She probably got up off the couch to go pee like five different times. The whole time I was telling her that she was pregnant and she kept repeating how she didn’t want to get her hopes up just in case she wasn’t. Today I just kind of thought about how I’ve watched her grow literally. She’s grown physically and mentally and I’ve been really thankful that I got to witness it.

When I got invited to the baby shower I obviously had to go shopping. She had registered for the shower at target so that is where I went obviously. Not only did I get diapers, but I got burp cloths and pacifiers. I made sure to get a card and then wrap the present in her favorite colors and although there were a few things I messed up on along the way, she was very happy when she opened my gift and thankfully there was no duplicates. The card that I had gotten was incorrect but she just kind of laughed at it, it was after all my first time having anything to do with babies.

I guess what I’ve slowly come to realize throughout this whole process is that yes I really do eventually want to have children when before I was never so sure. My mom had always been crazy about babies and it drove me nuts but now I can see why. There is obviously something all soon to be mothers and those raising their children have in common. That mom glow. They radiate a kind of crazy nervous and hectic happiness that you don’t witness anywhere else and I’ extremely happy for her! She is going to be a great mom to both of her yet to be named twins who are both boy and girl.

Let's Not Get Carried Away

            Up until a few days ago I couldn’t remember the last simple thing I had done, I mean something truly simple. Not intricate or complicated; just cut and dry simple. I quickly remember how easy it can be to center myself when I simply pick up a book and read for an hour or two with a nice steaming cup of coffee next to me. Reading is my favorite past time by far and for a while I didn’t read much of anything ad what’s crazy is that I felt more scatter brained than ever. After simply picking up a book and finishing it within a couple days I felt like I had reconnected with a long lost friend.

            Everyone has something that they enjoy doing, and it just comes easily to them. Although this is subjective I believe that when you find something that you truly enjoy it simply comes to you. For instance, if someone really enjoys painting and they are good at it, it will simply come to them; they don’t really have to try to feel better once they’ve started. For me on the other hand, art is stressful because I know for a fact that I’m no good at it no matter how hard I try; even if I know I don’t have to take myself too seriously I just don’t enjoy it. For something to feel simple and still be enjoyable you have to truly like it.

            Finding something that you enjoy that comes easily can be no easy task. Most people learn what they like easy on and when I say something that is simply easy I mean something that you can quick pick up around the house or go out and do that just makes you feel complete. It could make you feel like you accomplished something or just simply put you in a better state of mind. It’s easy and simple and you could lose yourself in it if you really wanted too. For me this is reading.

            I absolutely love reading; it can be anything from a regular novel to something completely different to picture captions in a book. When I say that I enjoy reading, it really has no limits and I am always willing to lose sleep if I’m reading a great book. It’s simple really, there are books all over my house and all I do is pick them up and get comfortable and I just instantly feel better. It’s a pick me up that I will never tire of and while I keep enjoying my past time, my mini library will surely grow to be much larger.

Decisions, Decisions

There are many decisions I have made that were difficult. The decisions that I have made that were important and difficult were never easily reached. They took a lot of time and consideration and during the time it took make to me them I stressed myself out quite a lot. One of the more recent decisions I had to make was whether or not to keep my second job while going through school. Unfortunately I had to turn in my two weeks’ notice to my second job.
            Throughout the whole time it took me to make that decision I put myself through unbelievable amounts of stress because my intentions when I had applied for the job was definitely not to leave as soon as I did. I was fortunate enough to be told that I always had a place at my other job if I were to ever want to come back. This in turn made me realize that I never should have stressed as much as I did because either way it had to be done. I’m glad to say that not only do I have a job to go back to but I learned a very important lesson; never stress out about the inevitable.
            After going through this decision I was extremely relieved and started to think about other decisions I had made that had been difficult and I came to the conclusion that I had always made the same mistake. Obviously every important decision that is important takes a lot of time to make but it should never take that much stress, if you know you have to do it then why freak out about it so much and in turn make every other aspect of your day so hard to get through? I now feel really silly that I was always so worried because every time I had to make a decision it turned out just fine and in my favor. I have never once regretted one of those decisions other than the process I used to reach a conclusion.
            After thinking thoroughly about all of this, my decisions, the stress and of course the outcomes I no longer feel the need to say that they were very difficult to make because the only difficult thing about them had been dealing with the stress. I always knew what I had to do it was just about carrying them out, I always felt like I had to let someone down. Not only do I need to follow my own advice, but I need to do things for me. When I realized that I needed to leave my second job, it had nothing to do with anyone else but myself and I looked out for my own interests because deep down we all have ourselves put first somewhat. My schooling needed to come first and that was in my best interests. So of course, I left Family Video and the friends that I had made in the meantime but I have never regret my decision to leave.